It has come to my attention that my life is slowly moving into a new chapter. I've grown out of my awkward phases and have molded into what I am slowly becoming. I've been constantly distracted these past five years, due to the influence of some very addicting music. At times I regret ever stepping foot into the doors of that fandom but sometimes, I can't help but like the feeling they give me when I see their many accomplishments and successes. Maybe because when they are cheered on, so am I. Their never ending streams of laughter and the fun they have together and with their friends just seeps out an aura of over flowing happiness.

But right now, I feel as though things have to change or I won't. It's not something I'm used to; changes. They actually frighten me. Just the thought of my life taking in a new environment, I become insecure but all the more excited for what things are in store for me. This so-called 'future' is something I dread, difficult to understand? I know. When I was younger, I wanted to grow up so badly I would walk around in my mom's heels just to feel taller (Although, I'm still trying to grow). But now, I no longer need to. I'm beginning to fill into my own heels and walk on my own which is really alarming at times.

And at this very moment I take in another deep breath, flip through the many application forms I have lined up, the brochures of many institutes, universities and not to mention those daunting courses that I have to choose from, it grants me terrible anxiety. I can't choose, I can't make up my mind but I have to, I need to. This is for me and for my future. Although I can never accept the fact that it will be my choices and my decisions that will be followed in the near future, I have to learn to.

So right now, all I really need to do is take it all in, smile and hug my teddy bear tighter than ever, because at the end of the day, I still have the most important people in my life; my family and my very best friends who will never steer me wrong.

♥♥♥


.KIMEUNMI
Status: Accomplished
Music: So Long Self || Mercyme

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